Maybe, I Need You I smile when I get your messages. Whenever something good happens, I want to tell you first. I cannot sleep before you text me that you are home. When I have a bad day, in that ol’ grumpy bear way, it is you who just comforts me without asking a hundred… Continue reading Ben Never: Maybe, I need you.
Mid life I finally realise I dont NEED anyone to complete me and I verbalize often that if some one is in my life as a prospective partner that I WANT them there. I see that need and want are different. I have been through the agony of the lies of need and the crazy… Continue reading Deanna L. Raymond: Maybe, I need you.
“I stood at the threshold of death, door wide open, flies filtering in.” Not Today I lay on wet ground, under this old tree. The branches reached down to me, they looked like cold pale fingers in this light. I was tired. I got heavier and heavier with every breath I took. I crawled towards… Continue reading Ben Never: Thresholds
I used to be so afraid to die The great unknown of just ceasing to exist To entertain that thought Would render me sleepless For days Best not think Dont look it in the eye And it will go away I had to face it Losing grandparents by age 12, 19, 21 It was still… Continue reading Deanna L. Raymond: Thresholds
Come here look me in the eyes there are things I need to say to you now in this moment you are neither too much or too little of anything People will sneer and call you both because they do not know how to handle your light Because in this moment you are glorious and… Continue reading Deanna L. Raymond: Perfect
“I know that you will be back, when everything you knew to be truth is on fire in your bones, just as it was in mine once too. When you’re tired of running, I’ll be there” Untitled I know that I have to let go sometimes, because I went through some things, too. I want… Continue reading Ben Never: Wild Fires
You ran Tail between your legs Like a guilty dog I have a feeling this Transgression Was not unique to me I stood firm Right where you found me After all I had the right to be there The freedom to take What you offered Tidbits that fed the flame You burned my mind with… Continue reading Deanna L. Raymond: Wild Fire
I'll never forget the day I saw a hummingbird: The August sun wasn't the only ungodly slap across an impeccably clear, though frenetic, Friday; The night before I fought with all of me to ignore the anxious worm in my gut, but I submitted and it sank its teeth into my heart, and all of… Continue reading Cassandra: The Grand Finale
“The grand finale might not be all fucking and fumbling like I thought, for most of my life, perhaps, it is a tighter grasp on love, and a loosening grip on trauma.” In The End It Was Just The End Of The Beginning I held so tight on what I thought to be what made… Continue reading Ben Never: The Grand Finale
Single with bouts of taken For 14 years Trying to parent Trying just to get through Dating a nightmare Finding a largely broken population Of 35 to 50 something men All manner of fuckery and games Pushing every button created by Old trauma Making me angry Bitter and disappointed To the point I had become… Continue reading Deanna L. Raymond: The Grand Finale