Susan M. Conway: I am a drunken morning.

I am a drunken morning. The ravages of depression do unspeakable acts of disservice to my well-being. My body hurts all over and I can't really recall a time when I truly felt good, truly felt solid, without worrying how long this good day, upswing thing, was going to last.. My happiness is always tainted,… Continue reading Susan M. Conway: I am a drunken morning.

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Rikki Abrams: I was always the shit show.

I was always the shit show... I was always the shit show for being the one worrying about bills, bottles and bedtime. I said no countless times and so many times I let you manipulate the situation so my no always became meaningless, except to help you paint me as the villain. I always found… Continue reading Rikki Abrams: I was always the shit show.

Susan M. Conway: I am screaming in the basement.

I am screaming in the basement. "Have I not always been a mighty roar, even in the basement levels of my despair?" I am my own heart's jailer. I am, simultaneously, the key turner to the locked doors of my heart's chambers. But, I do not know this yet as I slam my fists, and… Continue reading Susan M. Conway: I am screaming in the basement.

Susan M. Conway: I wanted to believe that you could never be that cruel.

I wanted to believe you could never be so cruel. We all live in our own versions of heaven and hell. Never simultaneously, always rattling cages, quivering masses of chaos in one dark corner or another. We all want what we we tell ourselves we can't have. I wanted to believe that you couldn't be… Continue reading Susan M. Conway: I wanted to believe that you could never be that cruel.

Susan M. Conway: Love is a lesson.

Love is a lesson. Love is a lesson in letting go. Love is a lesson in never holding on too tightly. Love is a lesson in the sanctity of vulnerability. Love is a lesson in leaving and being left. Love is a lesson in loving yourself when everyone and everything else is gone. Love is… Continue reading Susan M. Conway: Love is a lesson.

Susan M. Conway: Tell the truth, say that you are scared.

To hell with what anyone else thinks. I have buried and raised the dead too many times to not be a god damned silver phoenix risen from the ashes.

Susan M. Conway: I will glorify the shit out of my body.

I will glorify the shit out of my body. I dont know if I ever got used to men discovering my body before I had. I remember it always made me.feel uncomfortable to be stared at. Kinda like when prey gets a bit jumpy around a predator that took that second glance it's way. I… Continue reading Susan M. Conway: I will glorify the shit out of my body.